A written life a poetic soul

The Loop

2011-07-05T08:42:00.000-07:00

Again
Again
Again
Over
And over
And over
Again
One positive
To begin a line of negative
One step forward
Just to stumble back again
Again
Again
Again
Over
And over
And over
Again

Jalili B. Jimiyu
Yeah it's copyrighted 2011

Wondering

2010-08-27T09:50:00.000-07:00

I took a moment to sit and think

What I found out from my thoughts was nothing

Just a voice

Something I heard without a sound

Just my breathing and ears ring from listening to silence

I went out on the journey of clearing my mind

To try to find some answers to my questions

But I soon forgot my question

Also I lost my need for an answer

I just heard nothing

Just a voice

Something I heard without a sound

Just my breathing and ears ring from listening to silence

I wonder why I forgot all my thoughts

Was because I was trying to listen to something

Or was it just nothing

Something from the inside

Or was it

Just a voice

Something I heard without a sound

Just my breathing and ears ring from listening to silence

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Definition (Finally)

2010-08-27T09:36:00.001-07:00

I am the moon and the sun

The story and the teller

The high end of the low

The theory lost in conspiracy

I am the blanket for warmth

The nude in the heat

The lost found in the answer

The dancer in the wall flower

I am the hope of the fall

The rise of us all

The balls the speak freely

The lack of shame when you’re needy

I bleed out harmony when stuck with chaos

I am the reason for knowledge

The causes of war

The will to forget

The blank stare in the face of truth

I’m sick with prosperity

I die from lack of destiny

And I live after being all that I can be

I’m seen with shut lids

Missed with wide eyes

Time imitating art

And in the dark I’m bright

I am what is to be when being is all there is

I am THE DEFINITION OF LIFE

Jalili B. Jimiyu

The Book of Blah

2010-05-19T16:02:00.001-07:00

Never was it said that I don’t believe in God
I just don’t believe in God’s abuse by man
The bastradization of stories transformed into law
The hell carried out by those trying to get to heaven
All the empty lessons that end with contradictions
The saying that “God has a plan”
So do you mean that our “choice” is not our decision?
Or people saying that “God made me that way”
As to say that since they don’t have any control of whatever
The just won’t take ownership of their actions

I prefer to think in a way that God was merely just the beginning
And if God doesn’t like what we’ve become God will most likely bring the end
But in the mean time all the world is our story
We have to write the plot
Forcing us to hold the power
Deal with all the glory
And demand that we choose what our place is in life’s story

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2010

Intended Suspension

2010-05-19T16:00:00.000-07:00

Give me some lined paper
And I’ll crank out a message
Possibly a lesson
Words to live by coming from a purpose to die for
Inside I kept my thoughts locked away
But thankfully today they’ve seeped their way
Through my nerves endings sending
Tingles to my finger tips
Etching out what’s been burning my lips
Something I wanted to say
So with paper, pen, and letters I play
Writing what some will never say
Others won’t want to hear
In fear they’ll stop their sneers
And learn something that makes them
Think freely and in the end freeing me
From my writing halt caused by
An intended suspension to give my thoughts
Time to collect until there’s no room to store them
Now I’ll pour them pour on a page
Let them evaporate into your eyes causing storms over your brain
Raining down a new perception
Then together we’ll co-opt our thoughts and feed the world
With an organic message

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2010

I find myself

2009-12-26T10:40:00.001-08:00

I find myself
Mad, for no reason other than I don’t have what I want and no knowledge of how to get it

I find myself
Lost, not knowing where to get it would be easier if I even knew where I was

I find myself
Drifting, with no way to stop or to even change my momentum and its becoming regular that motion sickness is my illness

I find myself
Trapped, and I have no recollection of how I got here or how to get out most strange is how I got caught

I find myself
Wondering what this life is all about why can there be so many doubts but very few concrete answers

I find myself thinking about the world around me
Why things are so wrong
And how to fix the mistakes
I’ve been told to rely on faith
Or just leave the thoughts alone
Think about my own
But what goes on around us
Affects us all right here
“Can’t we all get along” Nah but we can leave each other alone
Let peace live in peace
And stop invoking the beast
In the end I find myself trying to fix the worlds mess

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Definition 30…something

2009-12-26T10:04:00.001-08:00

I am the comeback
The never left
Took a break now have some cobwebs to shack
I am the return of the gangster
The feeling of returning back home
I’m the energy shake
I am the missing replaced
The addition of power
The magnification of desire
I am the beginning of the new that was once old but fresh again

I am REJUVINATION

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Fire

2009-12-26T09:54:00.001-08:00

Where did the fire go
It left it must have left with the desire so
I guess the brothers changed
Or made his way ahead of the game
To be honest little has changed
But the message remains
And the heart still bleeds the same
Still I’m pushing on
Burning the image of strong
Living to be a righteous one
And prove thought is mightier than the gun
So if I disappear
Just no the fires still here

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Real

2009-12-26T09:38:00.000-08:00

Turning to face another shame
I begin to become tired of feeling pain for the shameless
Those that play up ignorance no longer get a reaction from me
Instead the ones that watch them get my attention
Passing along education instead of letting lesson be learned from the fools
I teach the youngsters that grow up watching the minstrel show performs
That real is not the images, but the messages pouring from them

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Before you’ve begun

2009-10-24T12:07:00.001-07:00

That the world is ugly and life is long and dirty

Time really drags but your too busy running trying to live

When you look up you realize you’ve spent your time dying

Dying to make it ahead of those of the same speed

And before you know it its too late to begin

Now your finish before you even got started

Along the way you’ve managed to make a baby or 3

Possibly had some fun with some one

Then the kids and forever are too much to handle

At times you bleed but for the most part you plead

Hoping that some one gives you that break

So you can breath love what you got

Obviously what you’ve got is far from enough

You want to cry but you stay tough

Hold your head up for the babies

Inside all the while time is ticking

Your mind begins slipping

And it’s all over now long before you’ve begun

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted Ó 2009

Problems after 99

2009-10-24T12:01:00.000-07:00

In the back ground plays hypnotic reams

As I float through a dreamy state

On top of the moon roof of my mind sprinkles pelts of hate

That wish to get through but I've already left my (over)head

During my ride to no where that I travel fast along my roads

Twisting with the turns of my failures

Later repaved by my triumphs

I am revisited by times that speeded by

Leaving me to wonder has went by fast or have a just be sleep as I survive

"Have I lost my mind" or do I just need to control my thinking

When I crack down on what spilts my thoughts

Trading in focus for blank stares

I picture an endless fall at the end of my path

That I can never avoid

So I fall and there is usually

Nothing more.....

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Negative im-positive

2009-10-24T11:59:00.000-07:00

In many attempts to be positive

I seem to only tell the awful truth

Point out the plans flaws

And question the creators existence

My faith in a higher power

Is as present as the presents of the most high

And to be honest I think most believers are mostly high

I’ve seen angels to only realize

That was the trick of my eyes

Or the fact that angels don’t die

I pray only to have my words echo off there own contradictions

Peace for all but death to the problem causers

Truth to the sun but my plans to stay hidden

And life for the living but death to the killer

I miss the point of the trip and I want to stand still

Only to get bumped into on coming tomorrows

Getting road rage causing me to chase down destiny

‘If I could only get over that hump”

Then I stop my speech and recognize the issue

The hump jumps and blocks me indefinitely

That’s why I can seem to smile

My eyes have seen so much wrong

That I can’t even cry right

Even if I tried I doubt I could die tonight

In that case I’ll just keep living in hopes I reach the limelight

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyright Ó 2009

Endless Past

2009-10-12T22:06:00.000-07:00

I look around and the world seems to stands still
Things never moving forward only just appearing to have changed
But underneath the altered surfaces, the cogs of socitey remain the same
My world view travels through mirror images mimking the same pattern
As life revolves around an idea that doesn't support living
I feel terrified that tomorrow will be the same
So I close my eyes and fall asleep praying that what I see and feel are just the flaws of my mind
Only when I wake my nightmares are this reality
Traveling through loops of today and the motionless clocks
That tick to the beat of the yesterdays thinking
I tremble with terror that I can't just do something to change it all
Wishing to reach for the hands of time and stop going nowhere at every moment, But I feel powerless to stop it
Since the living around me are willing to die to keep this faithful exsitence
Which leads us to tomorrows endless past

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah its copyrighted © 2009

OH

2009-09-15T10:53:00.003-07:00

Oh who has seen the righteous vision of what’s over the mountain top
The view that many dead leaders gazed on before their lives where taken
After they spoke to us about moving on as we stepped back

Oh who has felt the feeling of flying without wings through
As the world crashed to the ground from pushing of our shoulders
To get free and be at last with the light that we feel against our souls, never seeing

Oh what is the price that must be paid to get as many of our own to the place each one wishes to be
It would gladly be paid if the price was made know
Though the feeling of it is the realization that the price maybe to high

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Fast life

2009-09-15T10:53:00.001-07:00

All this talk about living the fast life
When all life goes the same speeds as the world’s turn
Still there’s burning rubber from cars speeding riders to their demise
Eye’s of thousand watch on as the sparks from the crash burn their retinas
The main threat to us is the chance that we may relax
Brushing off old paths to higher hopeful lives
But that would defeat the dream of the of living quick
Speeding past the moment catching glimpses in passing
In the chance encounter with fast results of money
A faint feeling of power really lasting an hour
So most stay psyched about rushing to nothing
Shortening the days with short sight
With delight in claiming their living of a fast life

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

No More Trouble

2009-09-12T12:50:00.001-07:00

No More Trouble

Lead by their own foolish thoughts of being over taken
They run around taken others over
Putting their names on their lands
Killing of their peoples and shipping in their own
They came it’s done in the name of GOD
They say it’s done to keep the world safe
They say it’s done for the advancement of many
When in fact their actions are done just for the control of controlling
No purpose other than them wanting to stay on top
Even if the top is set on a parallel line
When all come in and leave out the same way
They say they do it to bring peace but all they bring is trouble
But we don’t need NO MORE TROUBLE
No more pain from painful lies being spread about our children
We don’t want to suffer because another never learned to share
Times much change and with the changing time we must change with it
We must tell those that wish to control but not share the power
That we will no longer stand for it
That we will fight against it
That we already out number you and we don’t need

No More Trouble

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Killing Deja

2009-08-09T09:52:00.000-07:00

I remember looking out the window and seeing
The present as you would the past

Viewing life change steadily to seem unchanged

Moving forward only to turn a corner and touch myself on the shoulder
Then look back and see my face as I realize I have been caught in flash back

Hoping to trick myself into thinking this is living

I close my eyes and breath deeply
Expecting to take in some fresh air

But all I pull into my chest is the shameful truth living life in rewind
Going back to retract the progress of my years

Surviving only to live
Living just not to die

I desire to live the way of my dreams
But as I step forward deja vu traps me ductaping me to one routeen

Working, eating, sleeping the same lame existence

I must and will escape because I have been planning

In one moment following the scheduled
Taking the complacent med's to keep my ambitions numb

Just to hide my eagerness under my tongue
Run off to my hiding place and plot my crime

Devising my methods for escape
I head back into my place in line marching back to bored

Peaking to the left and right
Knowing that soon I will kill my relationship with deja vu

Finally making my get away from the commonplace humdrum

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

We the Sheeple

2009-08-01T17:19:00.000-07:00

We the sheeple to just roam a more prison like nation
Quietly stay silent as we die snuffed away
Never defending our desire for life

We the sheeple bend to the will of invisible rulers
As we vote aimlessly for the puppet getting the most good press

We the sheeple devour the fields of lies planted by our own ignorance
And unwillingness to change our own ways
All the while hoping things are changed on our behalf's

We the sheeple flock endlessly on mass to work
Bleeding, sweating and crying to fulfill some one else's dreams
Pushing our own to the background for the greater good
Which is good for only a few with greater positions of power

In our names we the sheeple carry the debt of a false flag government
As they wage false flag waving genocidal wars in our names
So that later we can give up our LIBERTIES for our FREEDOM
Screaming the name of GOD as they do the work of the DEVIL

We the sheeple stand by as invasions of distant people die
Fighting to not be like what we've become
As we kill in defensive of a life that has us captive to
A dollar, an idea, and a previously stolen land
Built on the pain of a stolen people

We the sheeple than cast out those brown, white, yellow, red and black sheep
That raise a call for us to break free of our controllers
And live our right to the lives of shepardes
So that we may guild our loved ones to greener pastures
Instead we leave them to the wolves hiding in the crowds
Waiting to kill the while they're young and tender
Before they can grow to strong and tough to lead blindly to hell

We the sheeple humbly lay our heads
In the laps of our executioners
As we press on to be forever herded to our demise

Unless we rise...

We the Sheeple

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

Definition (30)

2009-07-28T16:55:00.002-07:00

I am the bullet in the chamber
The trigger not pulled
The rev in the engine
I am the fuel un lit
I am the road not taken
The ground to be shaken
The life recanted
The seed now planted
I am the wish not granted
I am the spell for casting
The bang of war

I am the questioning of "What are we fighting for"

I am Consequential Choices

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

Cold Hands

2009-07-28T16:55:00.001-07:00

If you could hear me what could I tell you
How could I fully express how much I love you
How much I need you how much I miss you
If I could touch you how would I hold you
Would I squeeze you begging you to never leave
Would I gently embrace you not believeing your really here
If it was possible to see you how would I view you
Do you look the same unchanged by time
Have you changed your own views seeing life much different
If my ears could only hear you what words would you say
Would you tell me the love still there or
How much I have changed be the center of disscusion
Do you think I'm moving forward
Do you think I'm moving too fast or slow
Or do you think I should just live on
Keeping you lovingly forever in my past

I miss you

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Get by

2009-07-18T21:26:00.000-07:00

The Place and time to move forward
Has been lost in the current of "get by"
My goals are forcefully pushed away from my plans
As I live endlessly washed in the whirlpool
Spinning between the banks of desire and the Fed. blur of currency worth
At my birth my parents felt my life's promise as I pulled through the years
But now that promise is constantly broken when the life you live
Becomes collateral for the debts of your birth you now pay back to live
Endless consumption with zero satisfaction stops my stride
And sends my existence twirling
Robbing Peter to buy food while avoiding calls from Paul
Who gives his money to self-proclaimed Monarchy
Which is a mockery of the most high
Who seems too high to hear the pleas
From these here in purgatory just to get by

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

Notebooks

2009-07-01T10:55:00.001-07:00

My Blank pages fill themselves often
With words of misunderstanding
As I try to explain life’s worth in a few lines
I hide my inner mind behind colorful blank covers
With a chosen name etched on the inside page
Claiming ownership of these emotions
Some we all share as we try to find clarity in the ever clouding air
I wish for shackles to control my thoughts even though
Chaotic peace is what I really need
In hopes that I might scream with no control over my mouth
The wisdom I have tried to find in the messages of others
And for the first time feel the truth behind the visions of my own view
From there lift the folks of the story to the plain of reason
But plot lines tend to get lost as the story starts its raging rushing reign
Killing the point of everything just imagined
Leaving nothing but confusion in the words with me forever transfixed in desire
Once again my blank pages fill themselves often
With words of misunderstanding
As I try to explain life’s worth in a few lines
In these notebooks

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Body Copy

2009-07-01T10:54:00.000-07:00

I dress like you to look like him
And I read her words to think like them
I ea their food to share select taste
Swallowing it down with some ones else’s liquid choice
I listen to unthinking fit in music
As I work out to fit who knows model of health
Doing some guys exercise plan
To possibly flex my way into some lady’s pants
Watch a little media views
To share the same mainstream blues
From being slapped around by filtered half ass news
And turn my cheek again offering up another
“Well that’s how life looms”
Still I turn over and sleep on the lie
On some cheap but comfortable sheets
Dream my own un-lead fantasies
Of my vision of FREE yet reached
Due to the fact of being part of the
Mass human body copy

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Definition (29)

2009-06-22T20:45:00.001-07:00

I'm the tick in your mind
The Rattle in your mental
The stretch of your thinking
I am the vision behind your eyes
I am the scheme of a dream
The thought of a plot
The memory of the future
I'm the plan before the power

I am a BRAINSTORM

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

Mother Earth

2009-05-21T10:51:00.001-07:00

I never really noticed her
Though she was always there
Waking me in the morning turning my window to her sun
Put me to bed at night turning down the lights
Rocked me gently as she turned
Gave me different times to appreciate her changes
Was cold to me to make me seek the warmth of hugs
And made me notice her daughters when she brought heat
Causing all of us to dress less
She brought the winds and the rain to keep us inside together
Showed us what miracles were when brought us new life to love
And helped us grow when things changed and were so harsh
Unknowing she loved me giving me everything I needed
Didn’t ask for anything in return as I took from her
But I notice her now
She’s cold and she’s usually so warm
Her tears come down so hard and I don’t know why
But I know she still wants to smile at me
So as I walk on the land she gave us now paved and hardened
She sends some light my way to tell me that I am still loved

*Take care of her because she’s been taking care of us*

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

With (out) You

2009-05-21T10:31:00.001-07:00

I miss you…
But I’m force to live on without you
I can take your memory on with me
But I feel like I will slowly forget you
I experience new things and wish you experience them with me
But at times I just wish I was taken away with you
I see that being without you strengths me
But I feell at times I was abandoned by you
I know it wasn’t you choice
But I just want to hear at least once more your voice
Get a chance to read the new words you write
Smell the familiar scent you give
Touch you the same ways you loved me to feel you
And just lay with you through the night and early in the day
But I know if you were here I wouldn’t be the new me I’ve become
The stronger, bolder, more focused on finding my own wayI miss you I’ll always love you and have a place missing in me for you
But in you passing I’ve become a better person
With and without you

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Lost FOUND

2009-05-20T14:01:00.000-07:00

Watch me tentatively as I lose my mind
Duck when my voice starts swinging wildly
The words of spasms for the realization of ages
That the light is the darkness that tends cloud the of living
And on any given Sunday many forget reverence and opt for drowning
In the wells of hell dwelling with shells of the word
YES YOU HEARD a trumpet sound but you thought it was your phone
And when you answered you accepted the call of worldly holds
Bold with nothingness and the hopes that faith will get you to heave alone
Religion solo isn’t what will make you happy
Happiness itself can’t take you to bliss
And bliss is meaningless when you in this life by yourself
Caught up in the idea that you too “HOLY” for most
Boasting of your relationship with GOD but isn’t it funny you still feel alone
You need others to have bliss
You need others to be happy with
And if you need religion it should be a part of life and not you as a part of it
So when you find GOD and you start praying for a mate
You need to check your attitude and begin to FIND YOURSELF

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

I don’t care about yesterday

2009-05-14T16:10:00.001-07:00

Before you go into explaining the you YOU once were
Or how you got so scar or that scar
I just want to let you know that I don’t care about yesterday
Because right here right now is all that matters to me
I don’t care where you learned that
Who taught it to you
Or if you did do that with some other people
Just as long as you keep doing it to me
I don’t care who hurt you because now that I’m here
I won’t let them hurt you again
Know that I will never do what they did or anything worst
ONLY BETTER
And as long as they didn’t give you any
Deadly
Or
Painful
Or
Unsightly gifts that I can catch from you
Otherwise yesterday is just THE PAST
We all have actions, things, people from long or short ago
That we wish we didn’t have a part of
But as long as they made you a better persons
Some on that makes me glad to give a turd
About last Monday, two months ago or 2002
I’m happy to tell you repeatedly
(This is the last time thought)
I DON’T CARE ABOUT YESTERDAY…and neither should you

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Fill in the ----

2009-05-14T10:59:00.001-07:00

Thank you for the ___and the ______don’t forget the way you ___ and _____
I just love how you____ when we were _____ for so ___I can see that you are____ by this
____but I just wanted to take the time to thank you for ____ when no one else would ___
Or when you___ on everything you___ to do but let’s not ___________________SO___ YOU!
I really liked that one… AND TO ______You will never be forgotten for ____when________
Was just so___ but before ______________________or ___________________
I want to say thank you for the ___________.

Fill in the _______

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Playing with words

2009-05-12T13:57:00.001-07:00

Grabbing a hand full of letters
Model them into words
Shake them around in my head
Get up a good spin before I let them fly
Toss them from behind my teeth
Let them bounce against the bricks
Shock the whole block with my thought
Then watch attention fade when my next statement is made

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Live Forever

2009-05-09T12:29:00.001-07:00

Give me a chance to prove my worth
Through words, actions, motives and thoughts
Watch me break loose from the limits of mortals with my brith
Flashing through time on the line of existence
Lifted from gravity with only the breath from my lungs

Let me show you that my memory is worthy of remembering
With a jolt of good let me touch your thoughts
Spark flames of thinking, planning leading to creation
Touch my words with your ears and eyes
To be catapulted beyond the light of visible stars

Allow me to take you beyond anywhere you ever wished to go
Take my message and feed your family so that your center will grow
Believe in my life and see that other ideas of me are only blaspheme
At last for me, allow me to live forever in history
As one of the millions that said what had to be spoken

Live forever

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

You know we’re even RIGHT?

2009-05-07T17:00:00.000-07:00

I felt like I had entered my resting place
*SO SOFT SO WARM*
The way it all wrapped around me and sucked me in
I wanted to scream in joy
I almost cried at the beauty of it
My toes balled up like a fist
I stretched out clinched tight trying not to give in
*And she kept going*
“Think about something else” I thought to myself
Listen to the fan run
Hear the cars riding pass outside
ANYTHING TO KEEP THIS GOING
I kept my hands to my sides and just laid there
I smiled as it all was happening
Then all of a sudden

“You know this is going to cost you right?”

My next thought was “WHO IN THE HELL WAS I MESSING WITH”
I thought she was doing this because she liked me or something
Not because she thought she could make some money
My respect for her dropped…although other “things” stayed HIGH
I could only look at her in amazement
The connection I though we had was nothing but a lie
Her enthusiastic motions as she looked me in my eyes
Forcing my total focus on her the whole time
The way she touched me and sung her sweet pleasure in my ears
Came crashing down as a ploy
A PLOY FOR CURRENCY
So I thought quick angered at the situation but not ready to get out of it
(She was still rocking and the motion was still GROVY )
I HAD A PLAN I was going to take took control
First I said softly in her ear “Well I’m going to get my money’s worth”
Next I pulled her down fully reaching her inner limit
Then…I KNOCKED THE WALLS DOWN
Trusting her left and right taking her to her every limit and surpassing that
She gripped the back of my neck yelling in my ears
Bit my neck and called me BABY
I slowed down and waited for the Don’t stop
Then I said right before stopping completely

“You know we’re even RIGHT?”

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

DRAW

2009-05-07T16:23:00.001-07:00

Time is limited and the breaks in the rush are even fewer
The sun is high and soon to be some ones noon
Two fighters step to the center of town
The great each other with malice and the stare down begins
All eyes in the town grab onto the pair
People with no blood lust now seem to watch in awe
Attracted by an uncertain out come
“Who is going to win, I though he was dead”
“But how… SHHHH”
The questioning of everything is halted by the scene moving on
Their words slightly muffled by the dusty breeze
Hands appear at the combatants sides
Fingers tremble next to their weapons
A silent countdown begins
1… The sun rays beading sweat down their faces
2… Tension builds in the crowd as time stands still
3… “TONIGHT ON AMERICAN IDOL”
“AH WHAT THE HELL”
“TURN IT BACK” “I’M TRYING”
“HOW DID YOU…” “I JUST SAT DOWN”
“YOU SAT ON THE REMOTE”
We sit their fighting to find the channel of the movie
We don’t know the name of the story
And none of us were ever into western anyway
But it doesn’t matter any more because we missed it
Now we have our own stand off on the way
We leave the house and reach the club
Tonight it’s an actual ladies not and we are for the first time
OUT NUMBERED
Ladies to the left women to the right
I notice my opponent
1… I see her see me
2… Her “momentary” song comes on and she pulls me near
With a smile than a look off before looking back as to say
“What do you think you’re waiting for?”
I choose to dance face to face with her so that
3…DRAW, My name is JA what’s yours….

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Pretend

2009-05-07T15:40:00.001-07:00

Pretend to see the world as it is
through innocent eyes

Look at how good the world looks
all the love and happy games

Pretend to hear the sounds of peace
As caring voices speak

Listen to the cheers of joy over shadow
the lack of time that comes with fun

Pretend to feel what it feels like when anything
is possible

Touch the sky by just reaching high
maybe standing on your tippy toes

Pretend to be like them again
No worries, few cares, all promise

Lets all pretend to be children again…

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Soul Separation

2009-05-06T19:30:00.002-07:00

In the middle of all the worlds noise

I heard you speak to me

You gave my idea's freshness every time you told me something new
Showed me many different things as you opened my eyes
Gave me feeling as you touched my life

With you I felt like everything was possible
I was ready, with you by my side
To take on the opposition and live through times killing spree

But than you got caught by one of life's stray bullets and was pulled from my arms

You were gone and everything I felt was gone with you
I stopped watching them watching me as I went numb to reality
I walked on in a fog of loss
Hazy my mind stayed trapped in memory
Caught up in a wind storm of emotion I plummeted from our loving high

But I landed gently in your memory

I felt calmer as time went on
Though at times I still feel cloudy before bursting into rain from missing you

You made me strong and with your last words
Told me to live on and grow into the gap you would leave behind in my soul

Separate now but our love carries on

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

Return to Sender

2009-05-06T19:30:00.001-07:00

I feel like I'm over thinking the problem
At times giving pain too much power
I watch the time, not so I won't be late
Instead I'm counting down to the final hour
Something feels like it's drifting floating further away
So I stand on needles waiting for that chance
To choose my death over their dishonor
But no longer fully sure who "they" are anymore
My confusion and paranoia rising
And my heart rate is slowing
When I think its about over I notice a length to the story
Will is soon be over or just the next chapter in the run
I can only breath for one somehow I do speak for some
Maybe that's why my thoughts are so jumbled
Praying is trying and hope is twisted
Than it starts to feel pointless to think hard about the masses when most can careless
The passion is dying the paralyzes is rising
Maybe that's why I stay on the outside
Walking through the fog alone because when I try to give
I notice my sacrafice is being returned with trouble

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

The fiction

2009-04-28T14:23:00.000-07:00

I close my eyes to see the direction my dreams take me

Only to see that my nightmares become more vivid as I crack my eyelids

Hoping to see the peace but only seeing that little has changed other than the direction I’m facing

I’m lead down paths of survival working endlessly just to have a meal and shelter

I long to once again see hope when I sleep but alas my paths lead back to cornered markets raising the price of life making it cheaper to die

Since dying isn’t an option I’m forced to struggle

I hope to have
Still having seems to bring the pains of needing more

Pushing me and others to buy into what looks like plenty

Spending our lives to spend our dimes and nickels on more fickle ways to lie to each other dressing up just to say

“I’m worth a little more”

With the only trinket to say so being a tag on our collars with a name

A name that says we paid more for less

But I can’t fight dreaming about stamped paper on pointless goods

Getting nothing out of them dead envious glares of others who want the same nothing I have

Trapped in my and ours defecation of currency during another self-inflicted deficit

All I can hope to do now is to warn others of this fiction

“That freedom is good but Capitalism is better”

When the fact is Capitalism kills love and transforms your freedom into the life of a slave debtor

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Carry On

2009-04-23T14:32:00.001-07:00

It takes a long time to move on
Spending nights wondering why things went wrong
Confused about how the world keeps turning when what made yours go around is…gone
You stash away the hurt to face reality
Spread a smile across your face to fake away the pain
Play off the sadness and work up the stress
Avoid certain memories but still reject any possibilities of creating something new
Put off opportunities to swim in the past
The get all in a rage when you think about … LOVE
Over time you’re forced to carry on being unable to raise the resting
To insightful to go blind so you see something “nice”
The eye contact becomes unavoidable and thoughts
Feelings
Heads being to rise
The with time you are lead to carry on
No longer alive because you can’t die
But ALIVE because there’s so much to live for

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Self-Portrait

2009-04-09T16:53:00.001-07:00

I see a face young with aged eyes that have seen better days in dreams
With ears that have heard loud thoughts of self pity
Despite the noise I still see lips that smacked words of dignity
The same aged eyes have searched for paths that will lead these hands to grip a piece of reality
Even though this skin has been numb to hope driven only by self worth
I see in that face a pride that can’t be broken by destructive lies
In the middle sits a nose that spent years sniffing for a truth and has often been caught off guard by its tendency to smell awful
Still this heart has been driven to follow it for the chance to give
This mind a true memory of what can be consider life
I see a body firm and armored to defend against character attacks thrown at its dark tone
Hateful of this head of coiled hair holding tight the knowledge and wisdom of the infinite were the words heard by these ears
When I look in the mirror I never see what they want me to see
The facts of who I am don’t match up the stories they tell of me
And no matter how low they have pushed me I have climbed higher than where I was left
My self-portrait is made up of more than an image of a face
My self-portrait is the real vision of me standing out

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Imperfect Perfection

2009-04-02T16:38:00.000-07:00

In a perfect world I wouldn’t have gotten the time of day
But since the world is so imperfect the time was mine
She walked in 5 foot 5 fine and hair with no lye
Nice eyes, runners thighs and her chest said “hi” but didn’t scream
“NOTICE ME”
But the total package did
She came up to me with a little problem and to my glee it would take some time to fix it
Her voice tickled my mind as she spoke with intellect
Passing items from hand to hand I felt the softness of her skin
As she explained her situation her lips sent me into a daze
Hazy as my head was I was still able to help her
I handled her issue but I still stalled to make her linger around
Her scent preoccupied my mind
Causing me to change the subject, laugh with her
Comment on life…………
As perfect as the world was imperfection got in the way
I gave her my card
She gave me her number
We agreed to extend this moment of perfection on another imperfect day

Jalili B. Jimiyu
Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Purpose Point

2009-04-02T16:16:00.002-07:00

I was thinking from what began as a thought
A thought that formed an idea and that Idea became a plan
A plan that I felt was so good I need to write out an outline
Which outline my purpose and when I read it
I found out my purpose was pointless
How pointless it was put a thought in my head
That got me thinking of how to bring point to my purpose
But the purpose in that became pointless
Which made me think…
Why was my purpose pointless more so
Why was I trying to make a point out of a pointless purpose
What was the purpose of what I found to be pointless
And why was it so important for me to give my purpose a point
I than discovered that thought it may be pointless
It was necessary because it was my purpose
And it was a point for me to have my purpose
So I sat down and wrote one line proving my point

My point is my purpose and my purpose is my point

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

A poem about America…

2009-04-02T16:16:00.001-07:00

It has the eyes of the world peering in and out of it
It has all control sharing none with the people
Makes a lot of decisions and does everything the same
Puts on many faces so blame becomes confused
Uses suffering as fundraisers
Blazes into the future with old world thinking
Points fingers with its hands picking the ones it accuses pockets
Stuffs banks with lies, markets murder with hope
It fights its employees for selling its product
It uses recycled roads to pave over forest
Talk’s mental pollution in the same breath as cleaning up the air
Tells you to invest in the economy as it spends your future
Violates your rights under your ignorant of never really being free
And tells you your eradication is good for the environment and change
It lies to you with its hands on the bible
Cheats you out of your winnings since it lost your support
Then made you to fear the very people sent to protect you
This is the hell on Earth made to look like heaven
The holy grail of greed and incest
The call this the land of the free and the home of the brave
With these new laws coming into place that idea has been misconstrued

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

ZEN-like

2009-03-19T16:47:00.002-07:00

Center your mind relax and think about

NOTHING….

Easier said than done because my mind wanders when I’m busy
I dream as I walk, my thoughts enter my head from many angels
Ranging from peaceful to RAGING
I don’t have ADHD I’m just me a THINKER
I ponder the mysteries un-mystified by the majorities of thought
I’ve never smoked Ganja but my brain circles mount ZION
Causing me to think about un-thinkable truths
Exposing reality as false
Incomplete silence I hear music
And in my quiet I speak volumes
I flood blank pages with a wash of vision
Then I unravel the coiled kinks of my head
Causing me to see into oblivion thinking with my loosened scalpe
I tried the yoga and meditation but I find enlightenment through my sight
Thinking up the deepest questions
I realize they come with the mow shallow answers
“What’s the meaning of life?”
“The meaning is whatever definition you find in it.”
I have no need to look to the sky because the stars are all around us
Since we stand on Earth which floats through the cosmos
Dancing in space we sway with stellar souls
So there’s no need to shot for vanity because we are already at the top

….We just need to see that….

When I say this to a Guru I watch their mouths drop
Because I’m there and I did it with a “Clouded mind”
But if you wait a little the sun always shines through the over cast
Beaming the path to destiny
Let me just reach out my hands to catch my dreams
And start a collection of my thought
So that I may display what’s ZEN-like

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

How to swim

2009-03-19T16:47:00.001-07:00

She’s gonna teach me how to swim
Giving me a new way to move through the world
Fully clothed or butt naked I should be able to live
She’s gonna teach me how to swim
Take a few breaths push me on in
Sink like a rock and come up to fast and bet the bends
Swallow too much water gasp for air
Rub more salt in my eyes
Blink real hard till I can almost see again
Keep struggling to survive as the current rushes in
Get washed away with the mainstream
I then crash against some rocks because of the rapids
Pull myself up on a bank and waves knock me off again
She’s gonna teach me how to swim
I run into a glacier freeze up
But as the warm current mixes with the cold
I get tossed up in a hurricane and slam down in the NEW WORLD
With an OLD ORDER and get no help for 3 days
She’s gonna teach me how to swim
I wake up to a tsunami with FEMA on its way
But they meet me at the shore with a coffin
So I run to the desert and they meet me with bombs over Bagdad
Fearing for my life like others
That were supposed to be jealous of our freedom
But I never saw free though never was I behind bars
Still I couldn’t feed myself without a dollar
So she’s gonna teach me how to swim
Teach me how to live off the grid
Go by my name and detach from a Social Security Number
Run from the spot light as I stake my claim to fame
I jump back into the water again
Still unprepared expecting little of tomorrow
Because today LIFE said
She’s gonna teach me how to swim

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Harder on me

2009-03-12T19:38:00.001-07:00

I'm harder on myself than any one in the world can be on me
I scare myself straight when I think to do something wrong
I give myself something to cry about when I wine about something not being right
I am my most hateful critic forcing me to start all over
I am my own worst enemy when I prepare myself for a fight
I make me go hungry when I think of wasting food
I steal my own precious when I carelessly walk away from it
I burn my own fingers when I reach too far
I scream in my own ears forcing myself to pay attention
I call myself a dead beat dad if I go a moment without thinking of my child
I toss salt in my own wounds when I complain about pain
I knock myself down when I get too big
I push myself above and beyond when I think I reach the end
I rage out and hatefully to myself and don't allow any hugs to come in
I hate myself when I need to to make me love me more later
So there's nothing you can do to EVER bring me down
Because I am harder on myself than anyone in the world can be on me

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

No Play

2009-03-12T11:00:00.001-07:00

I give about as much play as I get

Getting stares from women with extensive litters

Harshly permed heads with mental breakage

Unpleasantly plump shorties looking for men to beat

Overly aggressive fine and psycho models throwing cell phones

As well as the usual “can I get a dollar” types

I don’t get the “good girls”

The higher mind grads with their own pads

Yoga lovers though they may hate their Pilates days though they still meditate

The voluptuous sweet hearts willing to share some sweet tarts

And of course the one’s that got away

Then was changed into a man hater after messing with some fool

Now see her with the mase key chain and a permit to carry it

I just get the pork eater that thinks

I’m crazy for not eating any animal meat

“Because we all like chicken and shit”

Or the BLACK WHITE girl that thinks if a black man rejects her

“That *NIGGER* must be gay

And her ignorant black “home gurl” that thinks the same way

Oh and lets not forget the “CHURCH NUT”

That thinks after a NUTT she will make me go to her church

And will save my soul praying to her RAINBOW colored Jesus

When we all know that brother was BLACK

I want a thinker that wants to see the world

The one that if she has a child she’s not keeping the baby from his/her father and trying to give me that title

Or the soul child with the Muslim name

Who doesn’t get mad when I say I don’t want another bean pie

The Buddhist tofu eating AFRIKAN beauty that I see the GOD in that reminds me somewhat of myself

Shit I’d be happy with the sorority sister that knows

SHE’S A SISTER that lies about giving up her perm to make me smile

When she honestly can’t see her hair any other way

At least she has her own dreams and sees life for what it can be

And doesn’t settle for how the world is

But I seem to get as much play as I give

I guess I’ll stay alone until we all stop playing

Jalili B. Jimiyu

A minute

2009-03-11T17:28:00.001-07:00

I have a moment to get this out
Show you what I see
Hand you what I can give
Pushing this out with the seconds counting down
Vocalizing what I need to say in these few words
Blowing everything out of my lungs
To make you gasp for air
I have a limited time to share this infection
Causing an epidemic of inspiration
-On an ear shot scale-
But with enough force to have those that hear it spread it across the word
I have just a minute to give you these words
Will you take that time to receive them
Breath them in and get high off these (v)erbs

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted 2009

A vent

2009-03-11T17:20:00.000-07:00

You aren’t entitled to SHIT
But a foot in your ASS
You know damn well I was a good father
And its funny how hurt you’d be if I just didn’t bother
I work for my daughter not to fill your pockets
And you keep breaking the law by not letting me she her
You can’t seriously think you can get first dibs on my check
Yet her birthday past MONTHS AGO and I haven’t seen her yet
I HATE YOU STICKEN ASS and it hurts because I love my daughter
She shouldn’t have to only know half of her family
She should know everybody that loves her
Be able to know who’s her REAL FATHER
The one that buys her cloths and sends her toys
And if that man you fucking with truly loved her
He would at least have the presents of mind to know she and me would want to see each other
He would return my calls and talk to me himself
But I guess he’s the bitch of a BITCH and just follows your every word
Hiding behind paper work and distance but let me tell you something
That paper work is bringing me closer
I hate to think that you only want drama
Well get ready for a call from my lawyer

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Wage Slave

2009-03-11T16:56:00.001-07:00

It happens the first day of every week
I feel it as it calls me
I try to put it away
But it tugs at me just to stay in my thoughts
And those thoughts get louder making it hard to ignore
At times I am floored by its persistence
Not to be ignored it stands staring into my face forcing eye contact
It breaths heavy over my head as it rest all it’s weight on my shoulders
The night before as I try to sleep
It jumps on my bed causing my slumber uneasy
It points at my clock counting down the hours
Letting me know time is near up and soon I will have to get up to face it again
With it’s cold invisible smile that I see clear
Clearly telling me “This is not what I want”
I agree though I’m not lost on what I want to do
HOW TO DO IT is the question
Now I walk to the door and take some air in
And yell painfully raging INSIDE
As I start wage slaving again

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Keeping my attention

2009-03-09T19:07:00.000-07:00

I love to watch her playing as her personal voyeur

Wrapped in her movements

Having eye contact with her hips

She plays to my pupils

Moving to our music

Teasing my finger tips making me so tempted to touch

Knowing she has my focus she pulls me in

Her pivots in her pelvis pleases my penetration

Sing her songs she sooths my thinking but increases my stimulation

I stay under her control as I dance in her

Twisting from the bottom hypnotizes me on top

And I feel like screaming when she begins to talk

“Is this what you want”

I can only say is “Humunaha”

She simply smiles pressing against me

Pulling me deeper in keeping my attention

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

Through the eyes of the struggle

2009-03-09T18:05:00.000-07:00

Get up, get out and get it
Scream, demand what you need
Stop accepting what you want

That's what it screams to us
Trying to get rid of us
The struggle doesn't want us
We want it since we keep it with us

What the struggle see is addicts to her drama
Our desire to know her and our need to show her
We say we wish to rid ourselves of her
Still we feel more alive when we have it

That's why we die
Lost within the struggle
Bleeding, fighting, as we struggle

Because we stay in it's eyes
Seeing the sight it gives us
The sites we seek to find it

The greed we think we need she gives us
This meaningless endless battle to have
When we have not even honored what we once had

So lets struggle on blindly as she tries to shake us off
Making us feel awful when we take her on
And be for warned when it lets us know

I see you think I'm what you want
But the struggle is not what you want to own

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

What I want to see

2009-03-06T21:07:00.000-08:00

I can tell you what I see
How I feel when I look into the air
Seeing cloudless skies streaked with chemtrials
Young brothers being made into hood martyrs
And young daughters being turned into booty calls

I can tell you what I see
The way it makes me feel when I see it
Ever black mens magazine hailing riches and bitches
Instead upliftment and our place in history
But I don't want to talk about what I see

I want to tell you what I want to see
I want to see BUSH IN JAIL
Cheney burning in hell
And people proud of the CHANGE they can make

I want to see my daughter smile
My nieces and nephews as well
My mother retiring happily
My sister restful teaching

I want to see my people TRULY OVERCOME
Not with the help after begging those keeping them under
But with their power and our children as the reason for climbing
As they erase all the self hatred for our brown skin
As we realize our beauty

I want to tell you what I want to see
Because you see what I see too
You see the bad rarely seeing the good
We all smile now covering up our gloom with a numb tomb

We can all see the bad and hope for the good
But I want to tell you what I want to see

I WANT TO SEE...............free

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

Weave Champion

2009-03-04T16:06:00.001-08:00

She had that Illwaiian slicky
Green contacts
Long press on nails
With a strut that catches you staring and screams “WHAT”
Her glare through those swap meat lenses
Let you know that she knew she was fine
AND ANY OTHER OPINION WAS A DEAD ASS LIE
I saw her and her made up face turned my direction
With a smile that said
“If I wanted you I could make you mine”
Even though I hate the fakeness I loved her confidence
As well as her freakiness
Most of the time we fussed and she yelled for me not to fuck up her hair
Her AKA pink and green sickened me
As well as her lack of Conscious Sense bewildered me
“Obama is the 2nd coming” yeah her t-shirt said it
But I stared for many reason…
One because she wore it in public was my problem of its non sense
(Damn he’s just another president that happens to have some black in him not some savior)
Two because her nipples poked through made me look
Through our difference and a short term fling
I still for a while I couldn’t escape her madness
Nor ignore her unmistakable badness
That’s briefly what happened when I meet Ms. Weave Champion

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

This is dedicated to...

2009-03-03T19:47:00.001-08:00

This is dedicated to...
You, them, those
Their's, thy, the
He, She, Me
My, Mine, Many
Few, Five, Four
Three, Two, Too
Us, I, Why
We, See, 'G'
The riders
The fighter
The prayers
The prey
The predator
The game
The school
The fool
The Beginning
The end
This is dedicated to...
Every one every one else forgot to
dedicate something to.

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

Settle in for the lone one

2009-03-03T19:40:00.001-08:00

“It doesn't hurt anymore”
He thought to himself as the world began to slow
The loud screams began to quiet and sounded far off
As he scanned the scene for his resting position
With the people running all around
The world seemed to twist like a boat on waves
He felt warm...he felt like smiling
Even though his friends looked panicked
The girl he danced with was in tears screaming
And he noticed a few other people laying down like him
…..Not moving......
Sirens began blaring but soon faded as well
He started thinking that before this mess that laid everybody out
This was the best night of his life
He took a deep breath and started closing his eyes
“DON'T LET HIM GO TO SLEEP” some one yelled
“LIFT HIS HEAD, WAKE UP” another ordered
“NO NOO NOOOOooo” cried a familiar voice
He flashed a quick smile before he settled in
For a long well deserved rest.....

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

Mine

2009-02-28T14:47:00.001-08:00

Not yours but Mine
My control
My power
My necessity

Not yours but MINE
My freedom
My liberation
My elevation

Not yours but MINE
My will
My drive
My passion

Not yours but MINE

That’s what I’m proud of

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Through the tint

2009-02-25T16:50:00.000-08:00

Let me see you for who you are
And not when you‘re playing along

Show me the truth in you
Please do what you do

Be yourself from the beginning
Worry nothing about the ending

Live with me in this moment
Take off those blinders

View us through the tint
And not against those hateful statistical reminders

You’re holding up a barrier
Trying to justify your fears

Stop listening to those past tears
Allow me and you to have some cheers

But you’ve been given this gift
As you sit with me in the present

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyright © 2009

Hope

2009-02-25T16:41:00.001-08:00

Seeing the world get deeper in this mess gives me stress as I see why they hope

Because there’s no more hope for self

And the only thing many people are proud of are the achievements of some one else

Most people I know can’t see what they refuse to hear

Even if they feel how disaster can hit them so near

Maybe if they heard the warning they could have avoided the problem

But I’m sure they’ve gone deaf from ignorance screaming in their ears

All I feel is love but I argue out of anger

When I see another cop empties another clip in another brother’s heart chamber

I look for GOD but I wonder did he already come

Taking away the people we’ve lost leaving us to kill each other in eternal labor trying to get to heaven

Though I’m still driven by hope, I feel like life’s screaming nope

Punishing the good for the deeds of the bad

The balance is off and few still ride for the cause

But oddly enough I hope on without pause

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

SHE – 2

2009-02-25T16:29:00.000-08:00

She walks
I glide
She speaks
I’m alive
She Moves
I Ooo
Her majestic body ignites my mind
I dream of her with me with time to do we
Playing till dawn
A tap on my arm
I wake back into my life pushed to focus on realizing our distance
But she looks
I pause
She notices my smile
Her eyes
My eyes
She knows what I feel
So she stops near
The opportunity is mine
I start with one line
“How are you?”
She’s fine…

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Some Where

2009-02-25T15:59:00.000-08:00

So busy and so far from any where I can call mine own
Even home is no where as I move through no where
Searching for a place I can call my some where
Home is where the heart was but I out grew there
I got to old for the old love even if that love will never go
Now is the time I must go find what’s my own
Some where new with memories of the old
A place I’ve been before but no longer know
Soon I will find it as I follow its voice
And when I reach it I’ll be happy
First I have to get there…some where

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Definition (26)

2009-02-25T15:58:00.000-08:00

I am the mountain top conquered
The Goal reached
The acceptance speech
I am the thrill of the finish
I am a happy ending
A shared celebration when the game is one
I am the return of a father that fought to be with his child
The words needed to be said
I am what we all need
What we work hard for
The thing in life that’s desired

I am what is around the corner and not that far from reach

I am SUCCESS

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Her MAGIC

2009-02-03T13:58:00.001-08:00

She dances
Pulls me in
Drives me crazy
Her MAGIC has me mystified
She roles her hips
Dips and twist
She makes the crowd vanish
And slows time making me twitch
I love her each song
She rocks me each verse
Her MAGIC alters our reality
Without a word I’m under her spell
She feels my hands on her waist
I pull her close
I speak to her softly
She hears me over the noise
Now she’s in my world
My words (my MAGIC)
Enters her ears making her mine

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Somebody tell me

2009-02-03T13:57:00.000-08:00

Somebody tell me can we be happy now
Can we rejoice today
Can we relax tomorrow
Can we smile right now

Somebody tell me what have we over came
What we have achieved
What we have changed
What we have we now to be proud of

Somebody tell me do we need more leaders
Do we need to be lead
Do we need to wait for a hero
Or do we need to just stand up and be strong on our own

Somebody tell me why should I back down
Tell me why my views are wrong
Explain to me why there’s no need for my words

Somebody tell me and show me proof of equality
Advancement and progress that we ALL can share
And I’ll gracefully assimilate and be happily quiet

Convince me that all is great food and glorious
Of course than I’ll be calm
But until somebody tells me everything is ok

I won’t stop fighting for you and me

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

A frown behind a smile

2009-01-29T10:57:00.001-08:00

The jokes run rampant
Though his pillow case is dampened
He focuses his attention on putting his thoughts in the background
Covering them up with political jokes and social satire
Completely tired and ready to retire
He struggles trying to conform knowing there’s so much higher
“I don’t know how I can deal” as he views what’s real
Life as we all know it crumbling in disguise of better days
Hope floating on rivers of feces, healing drenched in pain
And when he speaks the truth the words flow out in vain
He’s burdened with the “sight” seeing facts can be fatal
Suicidal reasoning’s for his need for rebellion
“Dying for the case is better than living in hell”
So he pulls the keyboard close
Types up his manifesto in all caps to represent his yells
Sends his distain for the power structure to congress
Signs it with his new name and shortened life
Now marked for death for so-called “anti-freedom”
Sincerely 2 dots a dash and an out parenthesis
He grabs his rifle and a single shell
Says “I’ll leave by myself before I stay in their world”
Heads downtown stands in the middle of the square
In front of all the privacy proof cameras
“With my death comes FREEDOM”
Pulls the trigger and blows the on lookers of his acting
Back into realities hell

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Touch you...

2009-01-27T10:45:00.001-08:00

She walked into my light
Shinny, oiled up, fresh from her shower
I began to breath heavy feeling my deepest desires
Rising up through my body
I almost shake as I see her coming nearer to me
She stopped short of my reach and opened her mouth
Letting out a single breath before speaking
I knew she was mine
“Am I want you need” she asks
“Yes you are” I reply trying to keep my cool
But the rush to my heart from seeing her this way
Is winning over my want to make her want me
“Do you want me” she asks as she folds her arms
Covering her “Sensitivity”
“I very sure that your all I want and desire right at this moment”
I say this as I slide to the edge of the bed
I try to touch her, but she steps back
With a smile she grabs my hand and places it on the bed beside me
I smile as well hungry but willing to play her game
“I want you to keep touching me” she says closing her eyes
“I haven't touched you yet but I would love to start” I reply
She opens her eyes bring her face to mines
Her lips touch mine, but she grabs my hands keeping them in there place
“I want your eyes to keep touching me” she says almost gasping
I now understand her motives
Though I'm not very happy, still I am intrigued
So I look at her....she moans
I stare at her...she groans
I blink my eyes ready to grab her....she stands and leads me by the hand
I follow her....touching her as I walk with her

*To the balcony*

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

What do I see

2009-01-27T10:30:00.000-08:00

What do I see when I look into the sky
I see what once was the limit
The only thing stopping me
The top of things I didn't feel tall enough to reach

What do I see when I look into the water
I see what gives the living life
And feeds grass that comes from the graves
I see the last place left to discover when I stare over the ocean

What do I see when I look in your eyes
I see possibilities of power
The chance at readdressing the problems with solutions
I see a chance at us being much more

What do I see when I look at the stars
I see tomorrow
Tonight
The future
The past
Life
Legacy
And I see myself getting overly artsy with this poem

But I saw it any way when I saw what I saw

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

Excuse me

2009-01-26T13:11:00.000-08:00

Excuse me for being me
Being the unwanted thought
The endless feeling that eats away your mind
Deeply entering the most inner
Excuse me for saying what you wanted to say
Screaming out your hidden thoughts
Your stashed away emotions
With my stretched out moans
Making sounds that resemble messages
Ringing in your ears
Then I burn your tongue
Causing you to recite me
Repeating my mistakes in your words
Excuse me for dancing in your eyes
Luring you to move to my rhythms
As I become your envied persona
Who you want to be but can't since your trapped
Working to survive so that one day you can hope to be me
Excuse me most of all for being you
The you, you don't see
You, you tend to reject
But you that you know I'm here
Stuck in your mind
Eating at your conscious
Telling you to be more
Excuse me for pointing you in the direction
You desire to be in
But don't blame me for not being me
Blame you for staying who you know your not

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

Just like that

2009-01-24T11:58:00.001-08:00

In a blink of an eye
The clocks tick down
The year changes
People scream and begin to sing
In a window across the street a face looks out
And just like that the smiles turn to horror

In a single moment
A child is born
He becomes a man
Meets a girl
They spend time together but they don’t think love through
A child is born as a relationship dies
And just like that the parents raise a young child in two homes

In a mind
A thought is sparked
The Moves are made
On New Years EVE a speech is to be made
Somebody plots to stop him from speaking planning hit murder
As the clock counts down he thinks of his child
The order is given to take a life
And just like that time is made to remember this moment

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

I’m a Freak

2009-01-20T16:02:00.000-08:00

I’m a freak because I see the world different
Swim against the mainstream
Dream with my eyes open
Touch you Rock you
Move you Lick you
Without being near you
I’m a freak because I like it rough
Do it slow Do it all
Give my all
Fearless of everything
Prepared for anything
Waiting for NOTHING
I’m a freak because I still
Don’t have to tell you
Show you
Prove to you
Explain to you
That I am…

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

In the middle of it

2009-01-20T14:01:00.001-08:00

Are waiting for the Revolution or some one to start it
Well if you look around and think you'll see you
Living in it now
The war is waging and you don't even see it
“They shot in”
And you getting hit with ever round
Things are happening that you don't like
Rules are being altered and you think you can't fight
The game is fixed and you know
IT ISN'T RIGHT
And you still think the revolution is just going to start up
One night
Your in the middle of it
Bombs are being dropped on your mind
Fluoride is poisoning you toothpaste supply
And this whole freedom think you have is the new prison of the time
Because they keep you working
SLAVEING
Glue to the tube as the rape you with no lube
The steal your children
Change the innocent thinking to merciless
All the while you are looking wondering when the revolution is going to
COME AROUND
Well it's here in your face
In your backyard
You are a casualty of the war you can't see
All while your waiting for something
That you in the middle of right now

IS it worth it?

2009-01-20T10:39:00.001-08:00

I feel like a voice of reason in a deaf society
Blind to my signals of reality that I gesture to them
While they're numb to the touch of the facts
They seem to go the wrong direction
As long as they're being unknowingly lead
And I try to scream to them to stop
But they seem to just step off the edge anyway
I pull them from the table slapping sense into them
Pointing out the fact that they are just being fattened up
Still they rush head on to celebrate some one else's Thanksgiving
With my people as the main course
I am the one that cares....but I am called the devil
Jumping in front them taking all the bullets
They look at my bleeding heart, my infected open wounds
And instead of helping they tell me I'm “blocking their blessings”
I don't know if the fight is still worth it
Whether my own people are worth saving
Should I still be awake or should I go to sleep too
So I lay my head down and close my eyes
But I still can fight the need to move as I hear the railroad of prison coming
To run my mind over with lies and pock out my eyes from seeing the truth
I forget again that I have given up on my own folks
Re-entering the losing fight again
Because I see now I'm doomed to forever offer a hand
When most of us are just looking for another hand out

Wake up.........

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

Tax breaks and back aches

2009-01-15T17:25:00.001-08:00

Tax breaks and back aches
Mass lies and false profiles
Infantile and senile
Judgment and detrimental
Institutionalized and euthanized
Immunize and sterilize
Property line and mentally blind
Media food and starving fools
Blurred and herded
Truth and false
Bless and mess
Right and left
Back and forth
No justice and No peace
Losing worth
Rich get rich
Poor stays poor
Justifying reasons for unjust wars
When it all gets worst
There becomes a need for new birth

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Untitled light

2009-01-14T20:49:00.001-08:00

He didn't have a motivation of what he should
He just went out and did it because he could

He wasn't pointed in any direction that would
Give him anything that he needed if he just stood

So he made his plan
Studied the situation
Made his preparations
Picked his destination
Then made his way toward is aspirations

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

Run

2009-01-14T10:16:00.001-08:00

I need to get what I came for
Move in the direction I'm traveling in
Take care of the business I'm busy doing
Reach every goal I started achieving
I need to live this life I'm living
Learn what I study
Give what I'm sharing
Say what I speak
Seek what I find
I need to grab what I touch
Feel what's in my heart
As I think with my mind
What I imagined when it all began
I need to see tomorrow as I wake the next morning
Hear the beat as I play the drum
Take the first step as I continue to run

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

Between fiction and fact

2009-01-07T10:32:00.001-08:00

It's got be white it's got to be black
There is no middle between fiction and fact
You can't believe a story and call the truth of it a lie
You can't scream pro-life but care less whether children during a war live or die
How can you be for Revolution but scared of revolt
How can you be for change but your only step forward is a damn vote
You know you've got to stand up and fight for what's needed
At times put your body on the line and risk bleeding
We're in need of liberation
We're in need of a power shift
But you can't get that mission complete if you don't even compete
Or say what needs to happen and be part of the action
Talking about burying words and forgetting the use of verbs is just a big distraction
You sit there and wait for the war to be won
But while your waiting the cause is getting lost
The focus is being changed and it's all being done in your damn name
It's no longer just about being white or about being black
Yet there is still no gray in the area of FREEDOM and the LACK

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

The Mind Kitchen

2009-01-05T10:20:00.000-08:00

Please join http://www.themindkitchen.com/

Throw up a fist for black power and two fingers for peace
Give the word a piece of my mind as I stand up to speak
Study the past as I act for the future
Invest in today so we'll have something good for tomorrow
Borrow a few words from Malcolm
A little bravery from King
With the resolve of Gandhi
As I perfect my Immortal Technique
Wake up the world with the message that's calling me
Scream for what I want but go out and get what we need
Dismiss all this ignorant bliss and give the people what we miss
Deprogram the foolish funk and make the minds bump
Get out my cooking utensils and prepare some food for thought
Steer up some conversations
Crack open some brains then pour in a few facts
Now walk out the kitchen and take FREEDOM back

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

Shhhh

2009-01-05T10:18:00.000-08:00

Shhhh
Shhhh

Keep it all in
Don't say nothing
Don't let it effect you until it touches you
Be another head turned away from the problems
Sit quietly as others scream in pain
Wash away the shame of not moving to action
With selfish complacent fear
Worry only about losing yours and forget the loss of others
Just say "It's better them than me"
And ignore that you soul is crying out
Forget that you live here with others
Forget that the needs of the many
Out weigh the desires of one
Just keep your eyes shut to every wrong
Close your heart off to feeling anothers pain
And sit there and keep suffering
That strange feeling of inner self-blame

Shhhh

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

So Bright

2009-01-03T23:04:00.000-08:00

So Bright

The future is for you

So Bright

Life's possibilities for all for you

So Bright

Blessing and Happiness just for you

So Bright

Always golden is our love for you

So Bright

I meet somebody

2009-01-03T23:02:00.000-08:00

I looked up and saw this person
The face was amazing
The feelings I got from it was so familiar
But it came from a place I had long forgot
I smiled and they smiled back
When I laughed they laughed with me
Same as when I felt down their own emotions meet mine
We thought a like and changed our ways together
We moved through the world with our heads high
Our walks where in unison
Our words filled with our passions
I was happy to know this person
Glad to be in their presents
For the first time in such a long time

I was glad......to be with me

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

Born again

2008-12-26T12:57:00.000-08:00

*Heavy Breathing*

I just keep running…
Faster and faster I just keep running
Hitting walls, tripping over stones
Getting caught in lies
Give away my time
Aging with an ageless face
But you can see the age in my eyes
The tears that I’ve cried
Permanently stapled to my gaze
Dazed in my own haze
I just keep running watching the world go by

CLEAR

*Relaxed exhale*

I watched them all pass…
As I passed them by
The fast life caught up
But I’m not the one that died
They suffered my pain
Didn’t listen to the advice I was given
As I grew up they grew down
They kept getting hurt as I healed
Lost their purpose as I found mine
And smoked it away as I developed my sound mind
For the ones that’s left stop running
Because time catches up no matter how fast you ride

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2008

Right Now (2nd go around)

2008-12-26T12:39:00.000-08:00

Right now I’m trying to think of something to write
To move nations with the sound of my voice

And right now some one’s in need of a message to move them forward
Because they’re stuck in the same place

And right now they feel that their right at the edge of life and hell
With the feet inching closer to the tip of a bottomless well

And right now some one is standing behind them trying to lift them up
But the weight of the world is for them to help

Right now some one else is getting shipped back to war
Even though the government said there’s no point in fighting any more

And right now some one is praying for the bombing to stop
While they sit alone in a hole wonder does God even listens any more

And right now somebody’s happy while somebody’s sad
And somebody’s living and somebody’s about to die

Right now as the world goes around
Somebody’s predicting when it’s all going to end how and WHY

But I’m just taken it in, using life as my ink to write a story with my mental pen
The holidays are going and year is nearing it’s end, and I’m ready to leave work but just to wake up and do it all again……

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2008

Right Now

2008-12-16T17:25:00.001-08:00

Right Now

Right now I’m sitting here thinking
About some one who’s right now seeing
The that the world right now is not what it seems
And right now the world is getting even more unsafe
Because right now some one in a office is planning a war
With a country that is right now just thinking of ways
To feed its people that are starving right now

Right now I’m counting the days when I can leave this city
So that at this time right now on another day I can be sitting with my child
Who is probably being told that I don’t love her right now
When right now she is at the center of my thoughts
Even though right now I can’t afford to travel to see her
Right now I putting my money together so I can move a lot nearer

Right now I can care less about tomorrow
Because right now my focus is on 10 years from right now
So right now I’m putting my life on that path
And right now I can feel the bumps in my road
That will slow me down but I can’t let that worry me right now
Because I have a life to live in a memory of many that aren’t here right now
And right now I can only live in this moment and get ready for tomorrow

I want to change the world but I realize I can’t do it all right now
So I’ll study plot and formulate my actions right now
While that person I’m thinking of right now
Is beginning to see that right now the world isn’t what she thought it was
And right now as things in the world get crazier
Because a crazy people in offices are planning a war right now
With a country that is right now trying to find food
For the people that live there that are hungry right now

Right now I’m just readying my mind with all the things I learn

Right NOW

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2008

Definition (24)

2008-12-16T15:53:00.001-08:00

I am the bump on the lump
The lost follower
The suicidal driver
I am the believer of lies
The teacher of empty thoughts
The breaker of concentration
The loser of sensible thinking in the game of Contemplation
I am the shame of brains
I am the sickness of propaganda eaters of today

I am the fool that will argue the truth with repetitive blame

I am the IDIOCRACY

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2008

Freedom smack

2008-12-13T19:49:00.000-08:00

As black man with a free mind
And a locked down behind
My skin tone tends to scream for what it needs
Desiring to bleed what is in my mind
And feel what my bones cry out for
Wishing to push the weight of living off my shoulders
Then in one corner of my body something starts hurts
Feeling as if from the inside something is forcing its way out
I know that my soul doesn't like life
Yet I'm not ready to die
I still have things to do and so far I have yet to shorten my time
It's a staggering feeling to know that my soul hates the world
But I...have learned to shack it off
Just putting it to the side and play the unfair game
Blaming the world for the problems I face
But I am the only one at fault for excepting this fate
Working hard for a value free dollar
Which value seems to be worth more than me
And this nation just holds me thoughts and livelihood
Wrapped around it's finger in a sickening destructive marriage
Where I play the battered tattered mate in this hateful love affair
And it seems like we're all stuck right here
Loving this evil thing, waking just to work away another day
SPEAK UP IF YOUR BOLD
And get smacked down by complacent reality
Because everybody just wants to live
And living poor hurts
The pain in your belly, the cold of the outside world
Keeps us slaves to a system that bails out the rich, the hell with the poor
So not to be smacked down by the facts I...have learned to shack it off
Put it to the back of my mind
And over look the fact that my spirit wants to run free
Speaking when I can, mostly writing it down
Yeah so many things to speak about that sometimes are better displayed as poems
Because you tend to have more free speech in a poem that some people may never want to read
Feeling as if it is art they'll never get
More words to read after a long day of reading at work
“It's too deep, That can't be true, Stop the conspiracy BS TALK”
So they will over look it and me because it's just another political poem
Leaving me out of the Freedom smack
Allowing my speech to run naked with out fear of being cloth
Still...it doesn't stop the feeling of my soul trying to push it's way out of my heart

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2008

Call into Existence

2008-12-10T10:49:00.001-08:00

In the beginning was my mind
A single thought sparked the rise of my right hand
And in that hand was a pen
I took that pen and pressed in to a blank page

AND CREATED LIFE

I made feelings come alive
Through words and through verbs created action
Action that began to build sentences
Within those sentences contained years
Staked on a single life that gave off spring a chance to live
Instead of being aborted from memory
With the replacement of time in that single life’s mind
Giving it a home on pages

I played God so much I was given the title of JA
With my own need to start something new
I took this constant motion of change and gave form to my creations
My creations now worship me as they voice my truths
Educating those that don’t know me or my reality
Giving blind readers sight so they can see
In hopes that my written breaths breathe life into movements
Raising them from the dead

I make the impossible possible with every possible read line
With every possible creation I can possibly create
Giving a better possibility that my words can be heard

Whether your hear me or not just know that
I am the creator of this creation
And uncontrollably create more
Which will one day call into existence a life of its own

The new arrival

2008-12-07T17:11:00.000-08:00

The room busy with heat, movement, and life
The tides of communication role on
Then from the open door slowly steps in a voice
A nameless face filled with thought
Few notices and those that do think little of the new comer

But unannounced he walks to the stage
Drops his coat from his shoulders
And as the eyes turn to him
He begins to speak.

These are his words
From his words are his thoughts
And out of his thoughts are his emotions

The dignified one has arrived.
With the desire to speak

Changing the world

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2008

Missed Opportunity (Letting love walk away again)

2008-12-04T13:59:00.000-08:00

I saw you see me...with a smile
That melted away with disappointment when I didn't say “Hey”
Your thoughts of yourself may have have felt so many ways
But it wasn't your fault of looks because you look amazing
It was me having a hard time reaching for beauty
Now the thing is I use the excuse fear of getting hurt
Or sill missing what I had forever wishing she was still her
The truth is I've been fearful like this my whole life
When it clicked in my head that I wanted you too
I turn rush back after I reached my destination
Running with confident to find you and hope you still want to get to know me
But already went away going on with your life in your world
Now your just another pretty memory I let get away
Haunting me wondering how it would have been with you
Seeing you smile in the morning
Making you laugh at night
Possibly no connection what so ever
Being turned off by each others minds
Or the worst choice of our lives to ever speak
But we will probably never know how this would have been
Because I missed another opportunity
When I once again let potential love walk away

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2008

I still bring it

2008-12-03T10:37:00.001-08:00

When change is the only constant
How can you proclaim you will bring it
Speak of how you will do it
Make it happen for all
Shift the swift direction life tends to stand on
How can you scream you'll make it different
When so many others want it the same
How can you get everybody to feel its going to happen now
Since its been happening long before you came along

HOW CAN I SAY I BRING CHANGE

When the worlds in forever orbit
Floating through time as we all grow from young to old
What makes me the force to make it so
Flip the sleep over to stop their snoring
Wake them with starting pistol to a new race
Ending the focus on nothing but Race
But make them see that the struggle is beyond you and me

HOW CAN I SAY I BRING CHANGE

How can any one else say they will do the same thing
I bring change because I live
I do it, I feel it, I see it, I smell it
I can taste the new flavor cooking up in the globes warming
Now I watch the clock tick ready for my time to come
So I can speak my message
So I can tell the truth
So I can help you see it
So I can prove that I still bring it

I STILL BRING CHANGE.......through my actions and that's the message

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2008

Change Terrorist

2008-12-02T14:07:00.000-08:00

I give my life which is all I have
To break the faith of the faithful cracks
Split in the flag now mad with power
I stand up as a Patriot Act felon to be
Yelling treason to the enemies of falsified freedom
While helping others on the boarder line find a selection
After years of misdirection, find a path to elevation
Dimly lit with hope but surrounded by distorted hate
Which is glowing brighter than the righteous path

With the glory glow of my goal given gun
I shoot off clip for clip in the direction of misleading stories
Raising the demise of ignorants
As my bullets of reality wound fictional propaganda
Striking fear in the hearts of Imperialistic Democrats
With videos shaming their Republican ways
Asserting my Independence every election I miss
I follow my movements with video warnings
Telling the world of their coming attacks
While letting this nation know it doesn't matter who's in power
Because they still promote and flood the planet with the same evil

But their fall will come
Possibly at my hands but most likely America's own
As they filter in their poison in the Media water
Murdering themselves with strangers with suicide bombs
As the collective imagination jumps to it's death
With a News show color coded push
Staged famines, Palestinian Phantoms, and Poor Powerful Pirates
Making them scared of their own thoughts
Locking away diversity under Martial Laws
Erasing 1776 from the history books
Giving rise to a 1984 reality......
That's why I stand against BIG BROTHER
Flip off their FLICKERING CAMERA'S
Proclaiming my post

9/11, SLAVERY, APARTHIED,
EMBARGO, FEDERAL RESERVE, COINTELPRO,
PLANNED PARENTHOOD, AIDS, SMALL POX BLANKETS,
FALSE MEDIA, CHOOSEN PRESIDENTS, FEMA CAMPS
TERRORIST ATTACKS
FOREVER CHANGING THE WORLD

All with a simple undying still standing REBELLION

Jalili B. Jimiyu

My FIRST BOOK IS HERE!!!

2008-11-30T13:07:00.000-08:00

My Counter Proposal; The poetis decisions I've lived through

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Church mess

2008-11-29T12:20:00.000-08:00

The Preacher says “we need more leaders”
But I'm lead to believe he's looking for more believers
A few lack luster achievers maybe a few thief-ers
Dipping in the collection plates filled by collective faith
Hoping to buy their way to heaven bypassing buying that new 911
Or the future of their own children's tomorrow
Letting this man talking for God borrow a few dollars
So when he follows his speeches with who's in need of saving
I think to myself the money in the church is going straight
To his BOYFRIENDS Le Saber
As they give each other the eye as he directs the singing
The preachers wife is mad as hell but she is getting really nice
Coming to church in her nice tight dress
Heals and freshly done nails
Smiling at all the brothers holding the hand of her man
But she's of course giving the glory to another
Scream JESUS when she isn't at church
As another man other than the pastor lays hands all over her
Mean while I sit in the back wanting to ask some question
Like “who made God, and who made WHO MADE GOD”
Instead I sit quietly knowing when I move out my mothers house
I will no longer be stepping foot into some one else SO-CALLED holy house
When all I see is the devil dancing
And sister Nancy pretty much dropping it and shaking it faster
Try to get the attention of the pastor
Who eye's are on the booty of the man who his wife calls “that bastard”
While she winks at brother Jenkins stuffing another $20 in her Victoria Secret bra
Which is not such a secret to all because I see it all
Waiting wondering wishing the doors of the church would hurry up and open
So I can run through the opening and carry my behind home.

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted 2008

Definition (23)

2008-11-26T16:57:00.000-08:00

I am the sentence’s message
The speeches mission
The words of the meaning of life
I am the scream of protest
The reaction of revolt
The blasting bombing boom of blaspheme
As I break the burning beacon of silence with my mention
I am the 40 wpm pounding of a keyboard
The printed out doctrine of speechless thought
Constituting reason is my voice
And logical placement is my force
I am a simple vision put into words and spoken, written or acted on

I am a STATEMENT

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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Times like this

2008-11-26T10:54:00.001-08:00

Times like this I wish I never had a child
Not because it’s hard work of because her mothers wild
But because of all this mess going aroun
People killing themselves on web cams
Or getting shot over food stamps
Individuals demonized for mind rants
When the true devil with the angel face is in your place
Nights like this I hope I don’t wake in teary sweats
Cursing life for allowing me to meet, love and lose Celeste
Making me turn away the rest because I have had the best
Then forcing me to love on with needless feelings of regret
Catching glimpses of people that resemble her
Giving me rage till I realize she’s not around
I know my sleeping sobbing woke the house
But I wish my words would wake the world
At least my own pain could heal the sick
Instead of everyone feeling as if things are well as I deal with this shit
I wish that this was a time to celebrate
Instead hope and dreams separate logic from facts making truth feel like fiction
As they call bondage freedom and Revolutionary talk Revolting
Times like this I wish me nor my daughter were around
So she won’t grow up in a world built on fear
And I wasn’t here forced to se it all powerless to fix it all

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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Well...

2008-11-25T14:02:00.001-08:00

Well….you couldn’t stand me
Tried to kill me
Silent’s me
And those that taught me
Raped women that loved me
Teach children wrong that want to understand me
Well…
You wanted to use me
Enslave me
Abuse me
Lock me away
They say it’s wrong of me to escape
Well…
You thought you had to tolerate me
Over come me
Cheat me when no ones looking
Misconscrew my words
And undercover demonize me
Well….
I guess you love me
Rushing into my nations
Tune into my stations
Join in on my frustration
But fall short when you try to match up to me

Well…envy me but you NEVER will stop me

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2008

The winds are coming

2008-11-22T09:21:00.000-08:00

The winds are coming
The winds are blowing
The winds of change are flowing in
Blowing away the BS thought to be too heavy to topple
Too deeply implanted to move
Dying to remain the same standing on weak foundations
The winds are moving the loose ground creating new landscapes
Along with the dark clouds, rainy sky’s the old world is being eroded away
Leaving behind a new refreshing chance to grow better
This is a warning to all those open to a different life
To rush to higher ground adapt to their new surroundings
And be ready to float on the changing tide
Because the winds are coming
The winds are blowing
The winds of change are blowing in

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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It's own evil

2008-11-19T10:37:00.001-08:00

When the decision was made it was in good intentions
Driven by a worthy purpose with a positive outcome
Everything about it was good and needed
Demanding of time but the time that was used was well spent
It burst to the surface from the hard work and optimism
It grew with loose lips telling the world about its arrival
But as soon as multiple uses became an option
It was used to hurt and blind the masses
Used as a reason to kill its desire was it's own
The purpose it served over stepped it's boundaries
And when a few wanted to put it back in check
It was used to alter it's own evil reality
Nobody saw that it changed into a virus
Became a killer of what it was made to help
The only hope now is to kill it for the worlds hope
Build a new one but with everyone watching
To make sure it doesn't once again go out of control
High off power
Control
Strength

The Government we build after we kill this one must be for the people
And not for the government itself............

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2008

There's better ways to die

2008-11-19T10:12:00.001-08:00

There's better ways to die
Then playing the part of the fool
Pulled into a “nigger moment”
Fighting over food
Killed over shoes
Being in the wrong place at the wrong time
And knowing that it was wrong before you got there
Executed for a crime you didn't commit
Eating yourself to 3 or 4 heart attacks
Being aborted when you didn't ask for life
Using toxic birth control instead of self control
Killing yourself for any reason not worthy of life
Cold hungry and homeless
Warm greedy and pointless
Being shipped off to a FEMA camp
Murder because a government is afraid of the people it should work for
Letting that stocker get close one too many times
Driving 100 in a 30 at night with your lights off
Shot by dirty cops with selective sight seeing a black gun in the hand
Holding a white iPod shuffle owned by a black man
Shit being black in a white nation
Being bold around paranoid people
Being desperate in a wealthy country
Starving when other have enough to share
Just being there when it all fell
There's better ways to die but too many die needlessly
But I'll fight to my death before I let it be me

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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Love her

2008-11-18T20:14:00.001-08:00

I stand here unknown to my enemy
But well know to their cameras
Watched, stocked and monitored
Still they know little about me
Just the knowledge I fight them keeps them watching
They fail to see my motivation
My need to keep going forward with unrelenting pressure
They know I’m coming but they don’t know
Because she told me to
As she flies over me
Glowing her light on my path
Her love guiding me on
Telling me for us I should stand
For her love I demand justice
Change is always in motion but I make it change in my favor
As she looks at me forever smiling
I fight because she loved me
She once stood right beside me
Made me strong by loving my tremble
Making me strong when I weaken
My queen my lady my moonlight NOW my mission
To live up to her belief in me keeps me moving
For her and our people I demand our rights
Search for the truth
Fearlessly running my mouth
No longer fearing death because my love waits for me over head
I talk to her twice a day
Sleep with her through the night
Honor her in every way
Since she was here everything was all right
Though she’s gone I carry her love into battle
Vocally firing off rounds loud enough for our heaven to hear it
I gave them my reason for continue the war
Now they can look over there shoulders
Because thanks to her love I climb the walls

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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The Words of a speechless thought

2008-11-18T17:08:00.001-08:00

The said unsaid
Words heard through the wind with no direction
Soundless racket pounding ear drums
Echoes with no vibration
Hums origin free
Haunt my vocal silence
Bring meaning to nothing
Form to transparent
Crowds to depravation
Out of the need to shut up to save your life
I speak the undesired truth
Destroying the needless lies
Thinking of fiction as I uncover false
Break chained minds with repeated info
Supply the fiend dis-creditor with reference collateral
While raising interest rates
With the words of a speechless thought
Brought to the surface made buoyant with rising consciousness
Snuffing of the hot air hell source
At times with force
Of course to make sure what is real is seen
And kept quiet is heard
For the sake of knowing what’s going on
Ensuring life goes on
For the most first of all
Because many needs out weigh the few
This is something we should all know
Yet selfishly over look staying numb to the worldly pain
With pills covering collective symptoms
Killing your connection to all
That’s why I rabidly attack the normality of sleep
With words foaming from my mind to your eyes and ears
Ending your restful state rapidly returning
Real nightmares back to your long lost mind
With the words of a speechless thought
From this 3rd eye un-blind

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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Gentlemanly Dilemma

2008-11-18T16:49:00.001-08:00

If I respect and honor women is it wrong for me to mess with a hoe
Join my lust with hers and burst the yearns
Kick up her heals and just enjoy how it feels
Forget what my mother taught me and enjoy the filth
Speak quietly of our exploits
Only to voice loudly our conquest in the room with her alone
Call her when I want some
Answer her we she’s ready to receive
Keep conversations to one topic
Talk only when she’s moaning my name
Show emotion to her when she’s occupied with my “brain”
Enter her mind through my lap
Demand a kiss after giving her behind a firm smack
You can’t turn a hoe into a house wife that’s what I’ve been told
But if love and respect is all you’ve ever learn to give a women
And all she cares about is making you release a little sperm
Is my respect something I should give to her freely or something I make her earn

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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