A written life a poetic soul

I find myself

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Sat, 26 Dec 2009 18:40:00 +0000

I find myself
Mad, for no reason other than I don’t have what I want and no knowledge of how to get it

I find myself
Lost, not knowing where to get it would be easier if I even knew where I was

I find myself
Drifting, with no way to stop or to even change my momentum and its becoming regular that motion sickness is my illness

I find myself
Trapped, and I have no recollection of how I got here or how to get out most strange is how I got caught

I find myself
Wondering what this life is all about why can there be so many doubts but very few concrete answers

I find myself thinking about the world around me
Why things are so wrong
And how to fix the mistakes
I’ve been told to rely on faith
Or just leave the thoughts alone
Think about my own
But what goes on around us
Affects us all right here
“Can’t we all get along” Nah but we can leave each other alone
Let peace live in peace
And stop invoking the beast
In the end I find myself trying to fix the worlds mess

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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Definition 30…something

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Sat, 26 Dec 2009 18:04:00 +0000

I am the comeback
The never left
Took a break now have some cobwebs to shack
I am the return of the gangster
The feeling of returning back home
I’m the energy shake
I am the missing replaced
The addition of power
The magnification of desire
I am the beginning of the new that was once old but fresh again

I am REJUVINATION

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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Fire

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Sat, 26 Dec 2009 17:54:00 +0000

Where did the fire go
It left it must have left with the desire so
I guess the brothers changed
Or made his way ahead of the game
To be honest little has changed
But the message remains
And the heart still bleeds the same
Still I’m pushing on
Burning the image of strong
Living to be a righteous one
And prove thought is mightier than the gun
So if I disappear
Just no the fires still here

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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Real

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Sat, 26 Dec 2009 17:38:00 +0000

Turning to face another shame
I begin to become tired of feeling pain for the shameless
Those that play up ignorance no longer get a reaction from me
Instead the ones that watch them get my attention
Passing along education instead of letting lesson be learned from the fools
I teach the youngsters that grow up watching the minstrel show performs
That real is not the images, but the messages pouring from them

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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Before you’ve begun

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Sat, 24 Oct 2009 19:07:00 +0000

That the world is ugly and life is long and dirty

Time really drags but your too busy running trying to live

When you look up you realize you’ve spent your time dying

Dying to make it ahead of those of the same speed

And before you know it its too late to begin

Now your finish before you even got started

Along the way you’ve managed to make a baby or 3

Possibly had some fun with some one

Then the kids and forever are too much to handle

At times you bleed but for the most part you plead

Hoping that some one gives you that break

So you can breath love what you got

Obviously what you’ve got is far from enough

You want to cry but you stay tough

Hold your head up for the babies

Inside all the while time is ticking

Your mind begins slipping

And it’s all over now long before you’ve begun

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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Problems after 99

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Sat, 24 Oct 2009 19:01:00 +0000

In the back ground plays hypnotic reams

As I float through a dreamy state

On top of the moon roof of my mind sprinkles pelts of hate

That wish to get through but I've already left my (over)head

During my ride to no where that I travel fast along my roads

Twisting with the turns of my failures

Later repaved by my triumphs

I am revisited by times that speeded by

Leaving me to wonder has went by fast or have a just be sleep as I survive

"Have I lost my mind" or do I just need to control my thinking

When I crack down on what spilts my thoughts

Trading in focus for blank stares

I picture an endless fall at the end of my path

That I can never avoid

So I fall and there is usually

Nothing more.....

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Negative im-positive

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Sat, 24 Oct 2009 18:59:00 +0000

In many attempts to be positive

I seem to only tell the awful truth

Point out the plans flaws

And question the creators existence

My faith in a higher power

Is as present as the presents of the most high

And to be honest I think most believers are mostly high

I’ve seen angels to only realize

That was the trick of my eyes

Or the fact that angels don’t die

I pray only to have my words echo off there own contradictions

Peace for all but death to the problem causers

Truth to the sun but my plans to stay hidden

And life for the living but death to the killer

I miss the point of the trip and I want to stand still

Only to get bumped into on coming tomorrows

Getting road rage causing me to chase down destiny

‘If I could only get over that hump”

Then I stop my speech and recognize the issue

The hump jumps and blocks me indefinitely

That’s why I can seem to smile

My eyes have seen so much wrong

That I can’t even cry right

Even if I tried I doubt I could die tonight

In that case I’ll just keep living in hopes I reach the limelight

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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Endless Past

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Tue, 13 Oct 2009 05:06:00 +0000

I look around and the world seems to stands still
Things never moving forward only just appearing to have changed
But underneath the altered surfaces, the cogs of socitey remain the same
My world view travels through mirror images mimking the same pattern
As life revolves around an idea that doesn't support living
I feel terrified that tomorrow will be the same
So I close my eyes and fall asleep praying that what I see and feel are just the flaws of my mind
Only when I wake my nightmares are this reality
Traveling through loops of today and the motionless clocks
That tick to the beat of the yesterdays thinking
I tremble with terror that I can't just do something to change it all
Wishing to reach for the hands of time and stop going nowhere at every moment, But I feel powerless to stop it
Since the living around me are willing to die to keep this faithful exsitence
Which leads us to tomorrows endless past

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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OH

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Tue, 15 Sep 2009 17:53:00 +0000

Oh who has seen the righteous vision of what’s over the mountain top
The view that many dead leaders gazed on before their lives where taken
After they spoke to us about moving on as we stepped back

Oh who has felt the feeling of flying without wings through
As the world crashed to the ground from pushing of our shoulders
To get free and be at last with the light that we feel against our souls, never seeing

Oh what is the price that must be paid to get as many of our own to the place each one wishes to be
It would gladly be paid if the price was made know
Though the feeling of it is the realization that the price maybe to high

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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Fast life

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Tue, 15 Sep 2009 17:53:00 +0000

All this talk about living the fast life
When all life goes the same speeds as the world’s turn
Still there’s burning rubber from cars speeding riders to their demise
Eye’s of thousand watch on as the sparks from the crash burn their retinas
The main threat to us is the chance that we may relax
Brushing off old paths to higher hopeful lives
But that would defeat the dream of the of living quick
Speeding past the moment catching glimpses in passing
In the chance encounter with fast results of money
A faint feeling of power really lasting an hour
So most stay psyched about rushing to nothing
Shortening the days with short sight
With delight in claiming their living of a fast life

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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No More Trouble

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Sat, 12 Sep 2009 19:50:00 +0000

No More Trouble

Lead by their own foolish thoughts of being over taken
They run around taken others over
Putting their names on their lands
Killing of their peoples and shipping in their own
They came it’s done in the name of GOD
They say it’s done to keep the world safe
They say it’s done for the advancement of many
When in fact their actions are done just for the control of controlling
No purpose other than them wanting to stay on top
Even if the top is set on a parallel line
When all come in and leave out the same way
They say they do it to bring peace but all they bring is trouble
But we don’t need NO MORE TROUBLE
No more pain from painful lies being spread about our children
We don’t want to suffer because another never learned to share
Times much change and with the changing time we must change with it
We must tell those that wish to control but not share the power
That we will no longer stand for it
That we will fight against it
That we already out number you and we don’t need

No More Trouble

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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Killing Deja

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Sun, 09 Aug 2009 16:52:00 +0000

I remember looking out the window and seeing
The present as you would the past

Viewing life change steadily to seem unchanged

Moving forward only to turn a corner and touch myself on the shoulder
Then look back and see my face as I realize I have been caught in flash back

Hoping to trick myself into thinking this is living

I close my eyes and breath deeply
Expecting to take in some fresh air

But all I pull into my chest is the shameful truth living life in rewind
Going back to retract the progress of my years

Surviving only to live
Living just not to die

I desire to live the way of my dreams
But as I step forward deja vu traps me ductaping me to one routeen

Working, eating, sleeping the same lame existence

I must and will escape because I have been planning

In one moment following the scheduled
Taking the complacent med's to keep my ambitions numb

Just to hide my eagerness under my tongue
Run off to my hiding place and plot my crime

Devising my methods for escape
I head back into my place in line marching back to bored

Peaking to the left and right
Knowing that soon I will kill my relationship with deja vu

Finally making my get away from the commonplace humdrum

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

We the Sheeple

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Sun, 02 Aug 2009 00:19:00 +0000

We the sheeple to just roam a more prison like nation
Quietly stay silent as we die snuffed away
Never defending our desire for life

We the sheeple bend to the will of invisible rulers
As we vote aimlessly for the puppet getting the most good press

We the sheeple devour the fields of lies planted by our own ignorance
And unwillingness to change our own ways
All the while hoping things are changed on our behalf's

We the sheeple flock endlessly on mass to work
Bleeding, sweating and crying to fulfill some one else's dreams
Pushing our own to the background for the greater good
Which is good for only a few with greater positions of power

In our names we the sheeple carry the debt of a false flag government
As they wage false flag waving genocidal wars in our names
So that later we can give up our LIBERTIES for our FREEDOM
Screaming the name of GOD as they do the work of the DEVIL

We the sheeple stand by as invasions of distant people die
Fighting to not be like what we've become
As we kill in defensive of a life that has us captive to
A dollar, an idea, and a previously stolen land
Built on the pain of a stolen people

We the sheeple than cast out those brown, white, yellow, red and black sheep
That raise a call for us to break free of our controllers
And live our right to the lives of shepardes
So that we may guild our loved ones to greener pastures
Instead we leave them to the wolves hiding in the crowds
Waiting to kill the while they're young and tender
Before they can grow to strong and tough to lead blindly to hell

We the sheeple humbly lay our heads
In the laps of our executioners
As we press on to be forever herded to our demise

Unless we rise...

We the Sheeple

Definition (30)

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Tue, 28 Jul 2009 23:55:00 +0000

I am the bullet in the chamber
The trigger not pulled
The rev in the engine
I am the fuel un lit
I am the road not taken
The ground to be shaken
The life recanted
The seed now planted
I am the wish not granted
I am the spell for casting
The bang of war

I am the questioning of "What are we fighting for"

I am Consequential Choices

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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Cold Hands

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Tue, 28 Jul 2009 23:55:00 +0000

If you could hear me what could I tell you
How could I fully express how much I love you
How much I need you how much I miss you
If I could touch you how would I hold you
Would I squeeze you begging you to never leave
Would I gently embrace you not believeing your really here
If it was possible to see you how would I view you
Do you look the same unchanged by time
Have you changed your own views seeing life much different
If my ears could only hear you what words would you say
Would you tell me the love still there or
How much I have changed be the center of disscusion
Do you think I'm moving forward
Do you think I'm moving too fast or slow
Or do you think I should just live on
Keeping you lovingly forever in my past

I miss you

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Get by

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Sun, 19 Jul 2009 04:26:00 +0000

The Place and time to move forward
Has been lost in the current of "get by"
My goals are forcefully pushed away from my plans
As I live endlessly washed in the whirlpool
Spinning between the banks of desire and the Fed. blur of currency worth
At my birth my parents felt my life's promise as I pulled through the years
But now that promise is constantly broken when the life you live
Becomes collateral for the debts of your birth you now pay back to live
Endless consumption with zero satisfaction stops my stride
And sends my existence twirling
Robbing Peter to buy food while avoiding calls from Paul
Who gives his money to self-proclaimed Monarchy
Which is a mockery of the most high
Who seems too high to hear the pleas
From these here in purgatory just to get by

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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Notebooks

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Wed, 01 Jul 2009 17:55:00 +0000

My Blank pages fill themselves often
With words of misunderstanding
As I try to explain life’s worth in a few lines
I hide my inner mind behind colorful blank covers
With a chosen name etched on the inside page
Claiming ownership of these emotions
Some we all share as we try to find clarity in the ever clouding air
I wish for shackles to control my thoughts even though
Chaotic peace is what I really need
In hopes that I might scream with no control over my mouth
The wisdom I have tried to find in the messages of others
And for the first time feel the truth behind the visions of my own view
From there lift the folks of the story to the plain of reason
But plot lines tend to get lost as the story starts its raging rushing reign
Killing the point of everything just imagined
Leaving nothing but confusion in the words with me forever transfixed in desire
Once again my blank pages fill themselves often
With words of misunderstanding
As I try to explain life’s worth in a few lines
In these notebooks

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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Body Copy

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Wed, 01 Jul 2009 17:54:00 +0000

I dress like you to look like him
And I read her words to think like them
I ea their food to share select taste
Swallowing it down with some ones else’s liquid choice
I listen to unthinking fit in music
As I work out to fit who knows model of health
Doing some guys exercise plan
To possibly flex my way into some lady’s pants
Watch a little media views
To share the same mainstream blues
From being slapped around by filtered half ass news
And turn my cheek again offering up another
“Well that’s how life looms”
Still I turn over and sleep on the lie
On some cheap but comfortable sheets
Dream my own un-lead fantasies
Of my vision of FREE yet reached
Due to the fact of being part of the
Mass human body copy

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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Definition (29)

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Tue, 23 Jun 2009 03:45:00 +0000

I'm the tick in your mind
The Rattle in your mental
The stretch of your thinking
I am the vision behind your eyes
I am the scheme of a dream
The thought of a plot
The memory of the future
I'm the plan before the power

I am a BRAINSTORM

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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Mother Earth

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Thu, 21 May 2009 17:51:00 +0000

I never really noticed her
Though she was always there
Waking me in the morning turning my window to her sun
Put me to bed at night turning down the lights
Rocked me gently as she turned
Gave me different times to appreciate her changes
Was cold to me to make me seek the warmth of hugs
And made me notice her daughters when she brought heat
Causing all of us to dress less
She brought the winds and the rain to keep us inside together
Showed us what miracles were when brought us new life to love
And helped us grow when things changed and were so harsh
Unknowing she loved me giving me everything I needed
Didn’t ask for anything in return as I took from her
But I notice her now
She’s cold and she’s usually so warm
Her tears come down so hard and I don’t know why
But I know she still wants to smile at me
So as I walk on the land she gave us now paved and hardened
She sends some light my way to tell me that I am still loved

*Take care of her because she’s been taking care of us*

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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With (out) You

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Thu, 21 May 2009 17:31:00 +0000

I miss you…
But I’m force to live on without you
I can take your memory on with me
But I feel like I will slowly forget you
I experience new things and wish you experience them with me
But at times I just wish I was taken away with you
I see that being without you strengths me
But I feell at times I was abandoned by you
I know it wasn’t you choice
But I just want to hear at least once more your voice
Get a chance to read the new words you write
Smell the familiar scent you give
Touch you the same ways you loved me to feel you
And just lay with you through the night and early in the day
But I know if you were here I wouldn’t be the new me I’ve become
The stronger, bolder, more focused on finding my own wayI miss you I’ll always love you and have a place missing in me for you
But in you passing I’ve become a better person
With and without you

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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Lost FOUND

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Wed, 20 May 2009 21:01:00 +0000

Watch me tentatively as I lose my mind
Duck when my voice starts swinging wildly
The words of spasms for the realization of ages
That the light is the darkness that tends cloud the of living
And on any given Sunday many forget reverence and opt for drowning
In the wells of hell dwelling with shells of the word
YES YOU HEARD a trumpet sound but you thought it was your phone
And when you answered you accepted the call of worldly holds
Bold with nothingness and the hopes that faith will get you to heave alone
Religion solo isn’t what will make you happy
Happiness itself can’t take you to bliss
And bliss is meaningless when you in this life by yourself
Caught up in the idea that you too “HOLY” for most
Boasting of your relationship with GOD but isn’t it funny you still feel alone
You need others to have bliss
You need others to be happy with
And if you need religion it should be a part of life and not you as a part of it
So when you find GOD and you start praying for a mate
You need to check your attitude and begin to FIND YOURSELF

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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I don’t care about yesterday

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Thu, 14 May 2009 23:10:00 +0000

Before you go into explaining the you YOU once were
Or how you got so scar or that scar
I just want to let you know that I don’t care about yesterday
Because right here right now is all that matters to me
I don’t care where you learned that
Who taught it to you
Or if you did do that with some other people
Just as long as you keep doing it to me
I don’t care who hurt you because now that I’m here
I won’t let them hurt you again
Know that I will never do what they did or anything worst
ONLY BETTER
And as long as they didn’t give you any
Deadly
Or
Painful
Or
Unsightly gifts that I can catch from you
Otherwise yesterday is just THE PAST
We all have actions, things, people from long or short ago
That we wish we didn’t have a part of
But as long as they made you a better persons
Some on that makes me glad to give a turd
About last Monday, two months ago or 2002
I’m happy to tell you repeatedly
(This is the last time thought)
I DON’T CARE ABOUT YESTERDAY…and neither should you

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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Fill in the ----

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Thu, 14 May 2009 17:59:00 +0000

Thank you for the ___and the ______don’t forget the way you ___ and _____
I just love how you____ when we were _____ for so ___I can see that you are____ by this
____but I just wanted to take the time to thank you for ____ when no one else would ___
Or when you___ on everything you___ to do but let’s not ___________________SO___ YOU!
I really liked that one… AND TO ______You will never be forgotten for ____when________
Was just so___ but before ______________________or ___________________
I want to say thank you for the ___________.

Fill in the _______

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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Playing with words

noreply@blogger.com (Jalili B. Jimiyu) — Tue, 12 May 2009 20:57:00 +0000

Grabbing a hand full of letters
Model them into words
Shake them around in my head
Get up a good spin before I let them fly
Toss them from behind my teeth
Let them bounce against the bricks
Shock the whole block with my thought
Then watch attention fade when my next statement is made

Jalili B. Jimiyu

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