I find myself

I find myself
Mad, for no reason other than I don’t have what I want and no knowledge of how to get it

I find myself
Lost, not knowing where to get it would be easier if I even knew where I was

I find myself
Drifting, with no way to stop or to even change my momentum and its becoming regular that motion sickness is my illness

I find myself
Trapped, and I have no recollection of how I got here or how to get out most strange is how I got caught

I find myself
Wondering what this life is all about why can there be so many doubts but very few concrete answers

I find myself thinking about the world around me
Why things are so wrong
And how to fix the mistakes
I’ve been told to rely on faith
Or just leave the thoughts alone
Think about my own
But what goes on around us
Affects us all right here
“Can’t we all get along” Nah but we can leave each other alone
Let peace live in peace
And stop invoking the beast
In the end I find myself trying to fix the worlds mess

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Definition 30…something

I am the comeback
The never left
Took a break now have some cobwebs to shack
I am the return of the gangster
The feeling of returning back home
I’m the energy shake
I am the missing replaced
The addition of power
The magnification of desire
I am the beginning of the new that was once old but fresh again

I am REJUVINATION

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Fire

Where did the fire go
It left it must have left with the desire so
I guess the brothers changed
Or made his way ahead of the game
To be honest little has changed
But the message remains
And the heart still bleeds the same
Still I’m pushing on
Burning the image of strong
Living to be a righteous one
And prove thought is mightier than the gun
So if I disappear
Just no the fires still here

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Real

Turning to face another shame
I begin to become tired of feeling pain for the shameless
Those that play up ignorance no longer get a reaction from me
Instead the ones that watch them get my attention
Passing along education instead of letting lesson be learned from the fools
I teach the youngsters that grow up watching the minstrel show performs
That real is not the images, but the messages pouring from them

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted © 2009

Before you’ve begun

　

That the world is ugly and life is long and dirty

Time really drags but your too busy running trying to live

When you look up you realize you’ve spent your time dying

Dying to make it ahead of those of the same speed

And before you know it its too late to begin

Now your finish before you even got started

Along the way you’ve managed to make a baby or 3

Possibly had some fun with some one

Then the kids and forever are too much to handle

At times you bleed but for the most part you plead

Hoping that some one gives you that break

So you can breath love what you got

Obviously what you’ve got is far from enough

You want to cry but you stay tough

Hold your head up for the babies

Inside all the while time is ticking

Your mind begins slipping

And it’s all over now long before you’ve begun

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyrighted Ó 2009

Problems after 99

In the back ground plays hypnotic reams

As I float through a dreamy state

On top of the moon roof of my mind sprinkles pelts of hate

That wish to get through but I've already left my (over)head

During my ride to no where that I travel fast along my roads

Twisting with the turns of my failures

Later repaved by my triumphs

I am revisited by times that speeded by

Leaving me to wonder has went by fast or have a just be sleep as I survive

"Have I lost my mind" or do I just need to control my thinking

When I crack down on what spilts my thoughts

Trading in focus for blank stares

I picture an endless fall at the end of my path

That I can never avoid

So I fall and there is usually

Nothing more.....

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it's copyrighted © 2009

Negative im-positive

In many attempts to be positive

I seem to only tell the awful truth

Point out the plans flaws

And question the creators existence

My faith in a higher power

Is as present as the presents of the most high

And to be honest I think most believers are mostly high

I’ve seen angels to only realize

That was the trick of my eyes

Or the fact that angels don’t die

I pray only to have my words echo off there own contradictions

Peace for all but death to the problem causers

Truth to the sun but my plans to stay hidden

And life for the living but death to the killer

I miss the point of the trip and I want to stand still

Only to get bumped into on coming tomorrows

Getting road rage causing me to chase down destiny

‘If I could only get over that hump”

Then I stop my speech and recognize the issue

The hump jumps and blocks me indefinitely

That’s why I can seem to smile

My eyes have seen so much wrong

That I can’t even cry right

Even if I tried I doubt I could die tonight

In that case I’ll just keep living in hopes I reach the limelight

Jalili B. Jimiyu

Yeah it’s copyright Ó 2009